I don’t remember the beginning of being ill. It seemed to arrive all at once after finally crawling out of a dark depressed pit. I was picking my feet up and walking independently but then I was down again, not being able to see properly everything was a thick misty soup. It was different being ill the second time as I had just started attending church. God had brought me to this church and yet here I was ill again.
One of my first encounters with God’s healing hands was after a session with anointing. It was like the oil had come alive on my forehead, I left it on as long as possible like a plaster covering a sore. The more I attended, the better I felt, the more I followed God’s call the better I could see. During my last appointment in October the doctor was amazed at my improvement. What had I changed he asked? I had done nothing, God had changed me within.
I met a lady last night at a multi faith event and she said to me that if God is calling you to ministry he will make it happen. A prophetic message from this lady perhaps? I am now literally fit for mission! Jesus has wiped the scales from my eyes and I can see, not only physically but I can see his grace, his love, and his call.
I believed that Jesus could heal me, I believe that he can heal my cat (she’s better too!) I am not worthy for his grace, I am a sinner like us all but a belief in him to heal, to love, to guide, and to forgive is paramount. Belief and faith in our saviour can heal us, not just from physical ailments but from the pain we hold inside that no one can see. Like the bleeding women, we reach out and grasp the bottom of his cloak to experience his holy grace. He does not scold us by being timid, he commends our belief no matter how tentative, and in that moment we are humbled and healed.
Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed.